i went out today

i went out today to meet hinto for a brief stroll along bloor street, grabbing a falafel and a coffee and sweating in the blisteringly heat.

i didn't bring my wallet.

i was trying to see how attached i am to the concept of my identity, as displayed on cards, ID, health, license, etc.

i am always aware of my wallet in my back pocket.

would i be 'freer', would there be no sense of the old skin that is my identity if i was without it?

would i be afraid, like the caged animal whose pen is suddenly removed?

sadly, i was neither.

very anticlimactic.

i have finished the novel, i am currently studying science in preparation for teaching.

i am ready to change.